I guess everyone must start out like this. I've been feeling a large amount of pressure lately regarding money and the like. Currently I am the sole provider for myself and Rose. There are a few issues with this however. My current job is not permanent... It will be ending in april. this means I need to get a job before May. Currently I make enough to keep us a float but not enough to put any money away for later. We have a bit in our savings... It could pay the bills for one month... It's scary to think however that if I can't find a job that pays at least 16 dollars an hour than me and Rose are going to have a rough go of some things.
There are little things we could do to cut down on expenses. I suppose we could drop all forms of entertainment. As well we could change our eating habits. That could probably save 200 or so... I just began having to pay off my OSAP so that adds another $-200 a month.
If one of us could find a job it would relieve my stress a lot. If Rose found a part time job and I was unemployed it would buy us another month or two for me to get a job. If Rose found a full time job we could survive for quite some time slowly eating away at our savings. If I find a job paying what I get paid now we can keep up our quality of living. The best situation would be if I could get a job in the area of 40K and rose snagged a part time job.
Rose is going to school in the fall and that adds a whole different layer to the problem. Rose wants to go to school badly. I have not seen her so excited to do something ever. Her going to school is an absolute must. This raises the problem of money... I have no idea how we are going to pay for it. That's a fairly large chunk of change we need. Rose has brought the money up before saying she can wait/not go but it's what she wants to do. She wants nothing more to go to school and thats what she's going to do. I mean there are plenty of things I want to but they are nice to have sort of things. I know that if Rose doesn't go she will regret it for the rest of her life and so I'm gonna make it happen.
I'm a skilled fellow and I know I'm needlessly worrying. Just at this moment my projections for the future seem so bleak. I know we won't wind up homeless but I don't want to slide back in our lifestyle. I always want to be pushing higher and higher. I don't want to go back to being a poor student.
The economy just makes it so much worst as job postings are so few. Everyone wants experience. In these times no one wants to take a chance on a junior. I'm in a rough spot in the economy. New employees are a gamble and even more so if there are "inexperienced". I have a year and a half of experience but that doesn't get you any slack I'm still junior.
Makes me think I should go into business for myself. I mean start a small game studio or something. My group has an interesting idea that I could see some health watch groups and maybe the government taking an interest in. I think it's a really good idea so I don't wish to reveal it on the internet just yet but if things come down to it I may look to blaze my own trail if I can't get a company to help me work at theirs.
Bah I was hoping writing this out would lift my spirits but it has only helped to bum me out even more... I guess I'll go do something else. I will feel so much better when I don't have these issues gnawing at my mind
